Against My Will

May last year i had a burglary attempt on my flat by three guys. Two were caught by police and the third escaped.

it turns out later that the two men caught was neighbor of mine (200m away), and i actually recognised one of them. 

The one i recognised is always high and a bit mental,

as he speak to hims self, swear loudly, hit himself and others near by etc etc...basically nutcase. 

To make a long story short, police asked me to witness against him, since i saw him lurking around the block of flats i live in day before burglary attempt. I agreed to be witness.

Weeks later, same guy is released from jail and walking around the neighbourhood. He did recognise me and had this awful smile on his face. I got frightened knowing that he had restraining order and he did'nt care...... being that close to me.

I called the cops and told them that he broke the restraining order......(which means that he would go back to jail straight away) 

 cops did'nt do anything... and this is not the first time cops have  ignored my case. 

I told the cops, i decided not to witness against this nutcase.

 Cus if he gets out or even don't get a sentence... Who is he gonna revenge on....... !!

...........

At home with my big family getting ready to eat dinner on tuesday, i hear knocking on my front door. i opened the door and there is a police officer standing, asking if i'm Fartun A. 

After a nod from me indicating that i'm the person he is looking for, he shouts ......."You Have Been Served" and handed me a closed envelop. 

I could'nt believe what i just heard.....I have been served!!!!....What have I done...? Geee...

The officer asked me to open the envelop and i would understand what this is all about, as he could see how confused i was. 

The letter stated that i have been summoned to attend a crown court as a witness against the guys who were caught for attempted burglary on my flat. 

I got really pissed off....... at this time in my life..i don't want to stress, and this is causing me  lot of inner stress. 

These cops are not gonna protect me, they have indicated that due to previous incidents. I don't wanna go because i'm i will be putting my safety, and my daughters safety at risk.

 

If i don't go i' ill be treated as  contempt of court. 

Don't know what to do  :(

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Hidden Agenda

I was surfing on Aftonbladet online when i came across an article about hidden text on Sony Ericsson game add. The text said " down with Palestine". 

When Sony Ericsson was contacted they did'nt know anything about it (offcourse they would say that) and blamed it on another company that made the add for them.

it pisses me off that some part of the world is so against Palastine. I suppose they are hated for there land (holy land) and religion, and so the most 

powerful countries in this planet wants Palastine to vanish from the world map.

its a shame that i didnt take a look at that video Igge gave me about subliminal messages. Sorry Igge, i will have a look at it tonight.

 

Here is the link to the article, OBS!  Swedish article.

http:www.aftonbladet.se/nyheter/article4472530.ab

Farre//

Last Destination

Here are mix of a few of hundreds of pictures from my last destination Puerto Rico, Gran Canaria. 

i really enjoyed myself to the maximum. Wish i was there at this moment......

Ciao:)

Appreciate you

I am blessed with the best abti in this world.

Thanks for doing what you did. You are a kind beyond belief.

Your helping hand and caring calmed me down,

and gave me well needed soothing relief.

I want to tell you "Thank you"

But it doesnt seem enough. words don't seem sufficient- 

blah,blah and all that stuff.

Please know abti i have deep feelings about your generous act 

and i really appreciate you,

you are special to me, and that's a fact. 

...........To Abti Ali.........

Farre//

Sleepless Nights

For the first time in ages...im sitting o my bed, tucked inside my duvet and not feeling sleepy at all in these late hours. Its almost 3 am..........

im tying to figure out what im thinking of....but im completly blank (not thinking about the last

 blogg at all, hand on my heart).

Ciao//

99 Problems

You know when you have days one is sad ......and you are having really dark thinking in our mind.....

Thats how im feeling today. I havent been in uni..(missed a very important lecture) instead i went shopping to take my mind off stuff.

I have been thinking of the last years of my life......................................am i happy with my life..? Is there somethings i want to change?
What has been the deepest impact so far? Where am i heading to?

These are just some of the questions that occupied my mind today.

I have also relized that im too nice........and my niceness has caused people to take me for granted.

im tired of being people pleaser.....its time people took THERE time for me and ONLY ME.


Fartun A//

Miracle Of Life

Womb of the mother In which resides the hope of the world
True paradigm of
Love
Joy
Sacrifice
Hope

A while ago I discovered that I am expecting, two blue stripes beacon to change my world forever, a simple prelude to the
infinitely complex phenomenon of life.
My eyes smile at me in the mirror, with excitement, questions and incredulity, I put my hand on my belly and laugh
“am I really going to have a baby?” Me, I? Yes. How amazing. How wonderful.
Smoking stops, snus stops, old life stops…life starts,
how great it feels to get over my weaknesses, as I am acting instinctively on what's best for our child, our child is, without knowing,
prompting what is best for me. Pregnancy: a commitment ...to love unconditionally second time around.

bulging belly, showing all of us the miracle of life.....

Farre//

Monday monday......

The week started with a bit of a downer for my angel. This morning Khadar was gonna drop her of at nanna's place ( due to school holiday)
so that i can get to uni. We did our byes and hugs.......ten minutes later ...crying jasmine is knocking on my door. As soon as i heard her voice i just jumped
out of the cough and opened the door....WHAT HAPPENED...??????

She didnt respond back as she was to busy crying, i hugged ger and calmed her down and looked if she had any injuries. Seconds later she
tells me that she and khadar has been in a car accident further down the mainroad infront of our house and that Khadar is ok.
Ehhhh....shocking or what...i didnt know what to say...my little girl was in state of a shock and so was i when i heard all of this. After a while jasmine has calmed down i went out to see how Khadar was......
luckly he was fine aswell..but the car.........well here is the pics judge for yourself

Alhamdullilah that no harm came to Jasmine and Khadar, Alhamdullilah.

Fartun/

Birmingham

Past weekend has been good...really good. me and jassy went to Birmingham to spend quality time with abti and his family. the kidz had awsome time, it was indeed long time ago abtis girls and jasmine spent some time together. Since coming week is school holiday i thought that it would be good for jasmine and for me to get out of london for couple of days. birmingham was soo cosy and quite....yes i said quite...hard to find in london.

here am sitting now...wished i didnt came back to london. i have started to dislike london....i dont know what it is ...maybe the constant noise or the smell of polution, revolting tape water etc etc london....naaaah. dont like you no more.

ciao//

Happy Valentine's Day

Sometimes pictures says more than words....this picture is one of my favorites and i love it, cus it says more than thousand words expressed to me.

Happy valentine's day

Farre/

You think you got it bad

Lyfe Jennings

No guts no glory No pain, no story Mama mama don worry

Heaven on my mind, forever on my grind Tell god, sorry If this ain't heaven where the hell are we This kind of plane is so unusual I'm beautiful, dammit,

I'm beautiful Bridge: See everything happens for a reason And the season (the reason and the season) Everything, happens some place and time So before the

mirror shines Some people never see the light

You, you think you’ve got it bad You think the world owe you something but it don’t owe you nothing You, you think that you’ve got it bad

Some people have never had a chance at life Wyclef: I live, I die, I laugh I cry The more I stay, the more the earth expends, and lends itself to sin For Benjamin,

I seen him crack his head with the Heineken Then snatched his chain The same place the sun fall, that’s where it rains And the same place the eagle fly,

down comes the pain And the same girl that bring me joy, she bring me pain. See everything happens for a reason And the season Everything, every single place and time Some people never shine Some people never see the sky

You, you think you’ve got it bad You think the world owe you something but it don’t owe you nothing You, you think that you’ve got it bad

Some people have never had a chance at life Wyclef Jean: You should everybody shine put your hands in the air let me see touch ya the sky light

This time I’ll give my energy and patience, success is waiting Wyclef

You grind, everybody grind, if I ever used to grind I will never touch the skyline Lyfe: Will I ever see the sky light, will I ever see the skylight

You, you think you’ve got it bad You think the world owe you something but it don’t owe you nothing You, you think that you’ve got it

bad Some people have never had a chance at life

Ciao//

This is for you

I'd like to be the sort of friend thatyou have been to me;

I'd like to be the help thatyou've been always glad to be;

I'd like to mean as much to youeach minute of the day

As you have meant, old friend of mine,to me along the way.

I'd like to do the big things and the splendid things for you,

I'd like to say the kindly things thatI so often have heard from you,

And feel that I could rouse your soulthe way that mine you've stirred.

I'd like to give you back the joy that you have given me,

Yet that were wishing you a need I hope will never be.

I'd like to make you feel as rich as I,

who travel on Undaunted in the darkest hours with you tolean upon.

I'm wishing at this time that Icould but repay A portion of the gladness thatyou've strewn along my way.

And could I have one wish this year,this only would it be,

I'd like to be the sort of friendthat you have been to me.

Dedicated to Fozia N and Linn W.

Yours forever

Farre/

Question1

Is it right to punish the princess because of the king and the queens behaviour......
if so elaborate you answer...

Notorious B.I.G

Having watched the film today...im taking my hat of for the producer. it's was a mix of the success and downfall of some great rappers and also showed the dark side of the hiphop world.

"the best experience is when you are rising up, cus when u reach the top, you can only go downwards" (2pac)

i dont wanna spoil the film for you guys, it really good one. If u get the chance to see it take the first chair available and enjoy.


farre/

Snowfall

After coming back from uni today i started to declutter my house. you know when its messy everywhere u turn to and you cant be bothered to clean up...cus u dont have the energy.
but yet you cant relax cus its soo messy.....
i was in that kind of mood. So i started to clean the house from top to toe( as it's said). Right after i was done, i feelt an inner calmness where i strawl around in a clean and
nice smelling house...hmmmm...luving it.

sitting in my couch with a bottle of water i catched a glimt of BBC news discussions about..."how many inches of snow its gonna be tomorrow, and how the country is gonna cope
with yet another weather disaster"......

you see in the UK specially in London, last time it ever snowed was 18 years ago and in other cities such as Bristol has'nt seen snow for 25 years. i would understand if it was snowstorm....but this snow fall does'nt even come up to your ankel.....common...Uk people are overreacting sooooooooooooooo much, that its almost unbelieveable.
As a matter of a fact the other nations are stunned by the the way the snowfall has been handled and how it crippled the country.
Last monday the snow weather caused a loss of 46miljon pounds just in London.

The reporters were also saying that 15,000 police reports was made, all of those calls was reports from the puplic about snowball throwing.....hahahah this people are jokes

Again there are prediction that many schools are gonna close there doors aswell as limited service in hospitals, shops etc etc. We'll see how tomorrow unfolds



ciao//

Travel Fever

Today i have been scattering the net for some cheap tickets to get to the other side of the world...
i have the urge to jetsetting some where hot and nice. Sooo

i have found one destination, but not 100% sure and it will cost me the shirt...:)
its a dream scenery and i know that i would be thanking myself if i set off.

giving myself 3h to make the final decision......whether to jet off or not...



l'll keep u in tune//farre

Hmm...

That i am dissapointed, on the urge of giving up certain things is very close. My patints is runing out and i cant no longer hold it in.



im gonna speak up and say ...I HAVE HAD ENOUGH....

I dont need to take this no more.....one can only accept certain things and this is far beyond what i can accept.


farre/

If only

If only you could for once listen to what i have to say, and not think that i am saying things because i have a hidden agenda...
then maybe we wouldent be in a situation like the previous one.....

If only what i said was taken onbord and carefully looked at ..then maybe you would have seen what i saw...

if only you could look beyond the fake innocence, then you would see how horrific this is.

if only you could trust my judgement.....if only you


Farre//

Believe

It is sometimes hard to cross that
bridge, to try something new,
or make that change. But once you do,
you will realize that things are usually
never as bad as we imagine.


Farre//

The wedding

As soon as i landed at gothenburg city arirport on friday, i collected the rental car i have arranged to pick up. Later the same day i meet up with everyone and we headed home Gislaved to help out with the wedding.
It was nice to meet the folks again i missed them...havent seen them for a while. i wanted to stay and give a helping hand and chill for a while but the house was crampt and we (me & my two babes) were'nt able to stay...soo we head to Anderstorp to Bamba to sleep over. Bamba, Angela and the kids you guys were absolut fabulous...thanks

Saturday was the big night for one of my dearest brothers....his wedding night!! yeeehhaaa....
We hade a really good party, i enjoyed every crazy
moments of saturday night. I hope u enjoyed it too. Back to gbg on sunday hopin to relax a bit after the all stress, eeeh no no...instead there have been cancellation of flights to london due to weather conditions....such as snowing and we had couple of guests over, and i was suppose to meet some friends. Everything became to much for me and i was already very emotional, ticking bomb.......tick tack tick........tack.


the good news is that i didnt explode....and im back home in safety................loving it.... gonna lay back and chill

ciao//